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Getting Uncomfortable.

Published March 27, 2018September 9, 2018 by Jacqui Hathaway Levin in mental health, psychology, recovery, sobriety, strength

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*New Blog Post* I wrote a new post on my blog for the first time in a long time, and I’m really proud of it. Click the link in my bio to read, “Maiden to Mother: Pregnancy, Sobriety and Feeling the Shift.” And enjoy this excerpt below. 💜 Image credit: @karencairns79 🙏💫 “This is a big morning. We’re going to see our baby at the doctor. I shimmy into the only pair of lululemons I feel comfortable in at this point and mentally prepare for the ultrasound—for another peak into this life inside of me. As a person who works hard to build and control most aspects of her life, knowing there is a little human inside of me growing without much conscious effort on my part, feels almost too good to be true. I still worry. Before each appointment instead of learning how to transform my nervousness into excitement, I just get nervous. My chest flutters. What have I done now to mess this up? Is something from my past creeping in to steal my joy like I always knew it would? But no. I am wrong again. And there he is, bigger than last month with an even stronger heartbeat (160!). It is always all right. Hanging here in the universe, we’re always all right.”

Eventually we get tired of letting our worth dissolve every time someone else hurts us. It sucks having to rebuild your whole foundation constantly. Then, we go through the process of learning to stand on our own. It is lonely. It is confusing. It asks us to believe that we are whole regardless of what happens, and it takes A LOT of practice. Well what if they don’t love me anymore? What then? What happens to me? I’m grateful for hard earned boundaries. No one knows more about me than I do. No one can define me or shame me into something less than what I am now. I don’t want to be anyone else. And I need a daily reminder. What about you? #codependentnomore #rupikaur

We’re having a baby boy. 🥰

I don’t want to forget that it’s all happening even if I can’t see it. 💜

And suddenly there was space. It only takes one breath to soften— one breath back to zero. *I haven’t posted a dance video in a while and found this in photos from June. It’s amazing how one conversation can spark the creative furnace. Thank you again @tammisalas and @sondra_unruffled 💫🌏💜

It was an honor to be on the @theunruffledpodcast talking about creativity + recovery with @tammisalas & @sondra_unruffled 💫 I know we will meet irl someday soon. We dove into what it means to be a multi-passionate creative. We talked about my relapse in 2014 and finding an alternative recovery after leaving AA, and we discussed how online sober communities have shaped us. Thank you so much for having me on. I’ve learned so much from both of you. You are jewels! Click the link in my bio to listen. 🖤

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